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Sunday, June 24, 2007
In Chains Tomorrow 2
" ORD is just the begining" - Some bastard once told me.
Unfortunately that particular bastard is correct. The past 7 days have been the hardest days of my life to pass since I ORDed. So many moments I wished I could just drop dead, unfortunately again, my wishes don't ususally come true. I had to live thru all the pain and suffering and type some rubbish here.
The only words in my mind as I went thru those stupid exercises and trainings were description on the smell of human reproduction organs and various greeting to peoples' mother. My life as an NSF was seldom more phyically and mentally taxing then those 7 days. Truly I really might have laughed too early when I ORDed.
I strongly believed that I must have raped, then killed then rape again some poor gal in my last few lives thus I am suffering so much now to atone for those crimes. The next 10 years of my life, I have to go thru the same and maybe worse crap that I went thru last few days. But I am not thinking that far now... I still have 6 days of ICT infront of me right now... maybe and just maybe... this might be my last post...
